*lawnmowerpants pretty much just saved my life with this program called nekopaint. The pen is pretty much just as good or maybe even better than SAI's, so at least I don't have to worry about that anymore. It also opens/saves .psds like SAI does. Unfinished because I'm feeling lazy, but here's my first real test of the pen. I'm already pretty used to it. The programming sucks for colouring though, but that's okay, I'm fine with OC4's. Big thanks to *cocoayouthcrew too, I'll give those other programs a try tonight.

lol the mood in my journal is broken, btw. I'm not feeling very caring right now. More like, PRETTY DAMN PLEASED.

I'm sure some of you have been wondering about my relative inactivity the past couple of months. I let my messages get a little out of hand again, but not as bad as last time. It's not normal for me to be so behind in submitting, too.

I've just been a little frustrated, and because of that a little less social than usual. Ever since some time in April, my "trial" ran out and SAI went pay-only. As most of you know it's my preferred drawing program now, at least specifically for lineart, which is the one thing that's hardest to use it for now, since I can't open or save .SAI files in it anymore. Leaving my computer on pretty much solves the problem, but I take so long that it's a hassle, and I still can't open/work any of my older .SAI files, which includes the two commissions I was working on. I've just been generally really upset over this, since I can't afford to/don't have a means of buying the program yet, and nothing else that I have has a pen as small or sharp as SAI's. I've been trying to practice in Photoshop, but since I draw as-is size, it's really not for me. And as much as I love openCanvas, the pen isn't small and crisp enough for me.

The issue's even made me later for a number of things that are important to me, like Mother 3's 2nd anniversary.. working on a picture that I want to do so well on in Photoshop is really unnerving. I constantly feel like I'm going to ruin it. I had two pictures going for Mother's Day, too, but didn't make it in time with those either. I'll do my best to finish these, but... it's just hard when you're forced to learn something new while trying to continue on like nothing happened.

I'm mostly over the frustration now, and I apologize if I've had anyone worried. I'm fine. I know it's weird for me to be so out of the loop on the internet, haha. I'd ask for commissions to work towards paying for SAI, but I have those other two to finish before I even think about doing that. But, if anyone's interested, let me know so that I know for later.

Happy 2nd anniversary, MOTHER 3! My anniversary pic will be a little late, thanks to me not having SAI and having to get used to Photoshop... since it's the only program I have with a fine enough pen for me.

I've neglected to draw the last battle until now, because I knew it would be hard. Unsurprisingly, I started to tear up once I got to Lucas. Of course, I'm listening to nothing but music that relates to this as I work on it. Hopefully I'll get it finished tomorrow, or the day after.

Also, I want to warn my watchers that are weary of Mother 3 spoilers, from now on anything that has relatively bad spoilers will have "-M3-" in the title. I figured it would be a nice gesture, since I'll likely be submitting a lot of art along those lines. Preview images for each of these would be too much of a hassle, and I've actually been stuck from submitting for a few days thinking about this., So yeah, if you don't wanna see this stuff, stay away from that -M3-! I'm not going to do this once the translation patch has been out for a month or so, though. Then you'll have no excuse not to play it! XD

Edit: By the way! Look, my scraps are being active!

You may have noticed that you weren't able to comment on isn't this TERRIFYING?! I missed critique discouraged and disabled comments by accident! Haha, bet you all thought that was weird... well, now you can go ahead and comment! (and I wanna see those comments!) Sorry about that.

By the way, I'm finally caught up on dA messages. y! is a different story, but I'm getting there.

So sorry, I'm behind on messages again. I'll get to all of them, I swear. XD It's the busy season.

On a positive note, I finally finished Terra e with ~rainbowshell and you should all watch it right now. I'm serious, it has no love and it's fucking amazing. Pleasepleaseplease watch it sometime for me. And if it's any incentive, there's gay all over the place.

After the art I still owe you can bet I'll be doing a lot of fanart!